Tired-o-pinion
Being opinionated is one of my 3 strengths whenever asked in an interview. But of late, I have become tired of them. Giving and listening.
From a guy who used to read The Dawn to read the opinion on the other side of the border, I have given up on newspapers. I can't move beyond the headlines now. I don't know what is propaganda and what is not. There are editorials, then op-eds, counter op-eds in editorials and counter op-eds in op-eds and what not. Then there are some random category articles which give you a 'different' perspective. Initially I got bored of reading them. Later, my head ached from trying to figure out who meant what. I became confused.
Good listener. This is also one of my 'quality' as per people. The truth couldn't be far away. If I don't happen to know the topic of discussion, I just give an Indian nod and carry on. I do not pay attention to what the person is talking. When I am interested in things, I love to hear what others have to say (only so that I can negate their point and prove mine). I think of all the people I know, there is only one person whom can convince me to leave my opinion. But the matter is that, now I am even bored of Miss Singer being right all the time. Now I know who others feel when I give better point than them on everything, which is also copied mostly from her.
There are two main reasons behind this tired-o-pinion. First, there is a lot of opinion now. A lot lot lot. Having a voice is bonafide cool. Social media has given everyone a microphone. And that opinion is always binary. There cannot be any middle ground. The whole idea of constructive discussion is lost (what great words..constructive discussion..sometimes I amaze myself). Specially in the case of politics and fandom activities. If you do not agree, you are a moron. There will be a barrage of abuses thrown at you which are often sick. Even stand up comedians now propagate a view, which is more funny than their jokes. I have stopped watching all of them except BB and iCriticRoshan. My type of humour. Baseless nonsense.
I am rambling..but coming back..the second thing runs deep down. Mistrust. I am having a really hard time trusting anyone. I often feel ashamed that I have broken the trust of people I cared about. And that has caught up with me. Usually it happens the other way round. Someone breaks your trust and you end up trusting nobody. In my case, I was the culprit and now I can't trust anyone. I can't even trust myself that I will turn the steering of car in time. At times, I can feel chemicals in my body making decisions for me rather than my mind. I have become a test tube filled with acids and bases. I sit and stare at the wall for minutes. I really do!!!!
I also saw a documentary, Hypernormalisation (Hyperbola + normalisation, so much advance maths that you thing yeah whatever, it is correct 10/10), which says that everything we currently know is a huge conspiracy. I got bored, as usual, because the narrator's voice was so dull, not because this is just another way to escape the harsh realities, but since this concept is given by a Russian author, I can't deny that I haven't been impressed by it. I love conspiracies. They are like gossip, but on a much wider scale usually involving people dying. Also, whatever the Russians say is so dreamy and unbelievable that you just have to like it. That's why I like Trump.
Too much diversion again.
All this has left me pretty irritated. I have given my favourite time pass of reading non fiction and giving free advises. I don't feel I control the people around me anymore...
Narrator: When people think you're dying, they really, really listen to you, instead of just...
Marla Singer: … instead of just waiting for their turn to speak?
From a guy who used to read The Dawn to read the opinion on the other side of the border, I have given up on newspapers. I can't move beyond the headlines now. I don't know what is propaganda and what is not. There are editorials, then op-eds, counter op-eds in editorials and counter op-eds in op-eds and what not. Then there are some random category articles which give you a 'different' perspective. Initially I got bored of reading them. Later, my head ached from trying to figure out who meant what. I became confused.
Good listener. This is also one of my 'quality' as per people. The truth couldn't be far away. If I don't happen to know the topic of discussion, I just give an Indian nod and carry on. I do not pay attention to what the person is talking. When I am interested in things, I love to hear what others have to say (only so that I can negate their point and prove mine). I think of all the people I know, there is only one person whom can convince me to leave my opinion. But the matter is that, now I am even bored of Miss Singer being right all the time. Now I know who others feel when I give better point than them on everything, which is also copied mostly from her.
There are two main reasons behind this tired-o-pinion. First, there is a lot of opinion now. A lot lot lot. Having a voice is bonafide cool. Social media has given everyone a microphone. And that opinion is always binary. There cannot be any middle ground. The whole idea of constructive discussion is lost (what great words..constructive discussion..sometimes I amaze myself). Specially in the case of politics and fandom activities. If you do not agree, you are a moron. There will be a barrage of abuses thrown at you which are often sick. Even stand up comedians now propagate a view, which is more funny than their jokes. I have stopped watching all of them except BB and iCriticRoshan. My type of humour. Baseless nonsense.
I am rambling..but coming back..the second thing runs deep down. Mistrust. I am having a really hard time trusting anyone. I often feel ashamed that I have broken the trust of people I cared about. And that has caught up with me. Usually it happens the other way round. Someone breaks your trust and you end up trusting nobody. In my case, I was the culprit and now I can't trust anyone. I can't even trust myself that I will turn the steering of car in time. At times, I can feel chemicals in my body making decisions for me rather than my mind. I have become a test tube filled with acids and bases. I sit and stare at the wall for minutes. I really do!!!!
I also saw a documentary, Hypernormalisation (Hyperbola + normalisation, so much advance maths that you thing yeah whatever, it is correct 10/10), which says that everything we currently know is a huge conspiracy. I got bored, as usual, because the narrator's voice was so dull, not because this is just another way to escape the harsh realities, but since this concept is given by a Russian author, I can't deny that I haven't been impressed by it. I love conspiracies. They are like gossip, but on a much wider scale usually involving people dying. Also, whatever the Russians say is so dreamy and unbelievable that you just have to like it. That's why I like Trump.
Too much diversion again.
All this has left me pretty irritated. I have given my favourite time pass of reading non fiction and giving free advises. I don't feel I control the people around me anymore...
Narrator: When people think you're dying, they really, really listen to you, instead of just...
Marla Singer: … instead of just waiting for their turn to speak?
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