Existential Absurd

A TV commercial says ' darr ke aage jeet hai '. They could not have been more wrong. For me, accepting your fear in itself is the biggest victory. Let me tell you something about fear. You don't think about it every time. You are oblivious to it mostly; busy in your day to day life, thinking about the present , how to move ahead in your career, new crush, great food, cigarettes, beers and comfortable sleep. You make yourself believe that you are a secure, stable and confident person. But that  moment is a cruel one. Somebody mentions the thing you don't even want to hear a word about  or something remotely related to it. You go numb. Blank. Horrified. Deep down somewhere near your chest, there is a sharp pain that emerges. An image, so horrible, pops up in your head that a shrill passes through your body. Somebody touched that old fear of yours which have tried so hard to hide, but have failed miserably. You lose your senses. You cannot concentrate.  ...

I will be posting a series of conversations, which are not related to me, but which answer some questions I have pondered over for a long time...and a very good friend of mine helped me write them. It is not important where these questions have have come from. Part I: Me :  I don’t know why she dumped me …I can’t understand..I loved her so much…cared about her a lot..she also loved me..I know she loved me..and loves me even today..but still she wants me to suffer..It’s okay that I suffer..why is she inflicting pain on herself by staying away from me..what joy does it give her?! Universe : maybe she doesn’t like you anymore… Me : NO..she loves me..I know that.. Universe : Alright..tell me what’s your story.. Me : It started a long time ago…we were friends initially ..but I had always liked her..and I kne w she too liked me.. Universe : Wait ! Don’t you assume too many things? Me: .no she liked me..I knew it Universe: What happened next? Me : I proposed a...

I am not the author of the following beautiful poem. Someone shy yet brilliant person wrote this. I am publishing this because I found it very meaningful and I could connect with it in a heart beat. There is no title to this, but I have decided to give it a title anyway. The Sweet Pain Between  us there is an unspoken connection, An unknown fate,an inexplicable attraction.. Never before have i felt that instant spark, On my soul you etched a permanent mark.. With you around,my day is filled with laughter, As you inch away it goes downhill thereafter.. The way you look me through,makes me go weak in my knees, For an instant it seems you hold my heart's keys.. This feeling makes me touch the zenith of happiness, Bt then reality strikes and i hit the nadir of mess.. I know i m falling down a deep abyss.. My heart is in a fix, My feelings for you are mixed.. I want this feeling to fade away soon, Because i cant take no more,no more the promises of moon.....

The Barcelona empire is reeling with the loss of their General Tito. It is at it's weakest position in a lifetime. Although they were vanquished by a mighty force from the higher lands of the Third Reich last year, they still have Messi the Maximus. They have added to their infantry, the lighting quick and tricky archer from the Latin - Neymar.  The prospect to have the twig great soldiers within his rank was delight for General Tito. But fate was to play a bigger part. He relapsed into his cancer and will have to leave for the lands of Americanös for treatment. Barcelona have been looking for a Spartan in the defence although their choices are fast depleting. Adding insult to injury was to see Lord Gaurdiola take away their prodigy,Alcantara, to their nemesis of last year. Who they appoint the new guardian of their city will also have say about their fortune. This represents a golden opportunity for the newly appointed Don of Madrid, Senor Ancelotti. Don Ancelotti comes as a...

Howling ghost they reappear In mountains that are stacked with fear But you're a queen and I'm a lion-heart. And in the sea that's painted black, Creatures lurk below the deck But you're a queen and I'm a lion-heart. And as the world comes to an end  I'll be here to hold your hand 'Cause you're my queen and I'm your lion-heart. I am no lion-heart. But this defeat, which is the most terrible thing that has happened to me, will make me strong. Now I know why not to trust blindly, why not to take decisions with your heart and why not to expect great things from people just because you can do those things for them. Learned men say that the heart has nothing to do with the emotions and it is all up there in your head. But when you get that sinking feeling from where you think only about giving yourself away, you feel the pain in the center of your body.  It is called heart break.  Probably there is where the soul is.  Someone told me that failures t...

Sorry for a long break (not that anyone of you was waiting for a new post),but still, as a blogger it's my duty to. I didn't write because there hasn't been anything new and writeable. Have been totally fokat for the last few months. Interesting that I like fokat more than vella. Don't know,but vella sounds insulting. I mean, who would like him to be called a lazy,free ass. But fokat just doesn't sound that bad (:P). Most of my college mates are complaining about lack of action and the boredom that has crept in. But I will take this free and boring time ahead of anything that requires mental labour. Physical labor isn't at all vexatious for me. I enjoy being at gym and the football field is both a haven and a heaven. Former because it's the only thing I know inside out. It's my safe zone, where usually there is no one to challenge me. I will be honest, I don't like many hurdles thrown my way. . Heaven because it's something I love to do. B...

It feels good to stay alone in your home, to feel the emptiness, to hear every hiss, to hear every door knock distinctly, to play loud music. It feels good to work out in a gym, to flex your muscles, to burn some fat, to sweat heavily, to catch some breath, to push things, to pull weights. It feels good to sit in the sun, to feel the warmth, to watch the clear sky, to hear birds chirp, to see kites fly, to hear the trucks on the distant road. It feels good to spend days out, eat delicious food, to watch all movies, to window shop , to buy sweaters, to eat ice creams in biting cold. It feels good to read books, to watch TV, to play games, to gain knowledge, to read newspapers. If feels bad to see your love lose, to get bad grades, to fail at exams, to not to be able to buy a new phone, to see your team lose. It Feels ugly.